I am or was addicted to the TV show Dharma and Greg, I always hoped that I would be like Dharma. I think we all wanted to be that free spirited that uninhibited. Ok, so maybe it is just me. I do believe in my heart that I am free spirited. I just hold back. Why? I don't know. Is it my belief that it is bad or am I so unsure? I don't know but anyways I found this quote by the writers of the show. I loved it.

The Buddha taught that the first principle of existence is impermanence.

Absolutely everything in this universe is impermanent.

Impermanence creates uncertainty.

I don't know about you, but I have a very low tolerance for uncertainty.

Uncertainty causes me discomfort.

Discomfort causes me to think stupid things.

Stupid thoughts cause me to take stupid actions.

My stupid actions bring about unfortunate results.

Luckily, the unfortunate results are impermanent.

Is this a great universe or what?"

Bling

I just heard about this and had to blog about it. Jennifer Lopez, who appeared on Good Morning, America August 18th to discuss her preparations for the Malibu Triathlon, was overheard saying after the segment that she “couldn’t understand why everyone is talking about that swimmer,” according to a GMA source. “She couldn’t come up with (eight-time gold-medal winner Michael) Phelps’ name, [emphasis mine] and then she yammered on about how she was the one training for a triathlon just six months after giving birth, and how that was the big story right now, not ‘the swimmer.’ ”

Ok as a triathlete myself I know how difficult they are. Seriously they are not easy. I also know that it is extremely difficult to lose weight after birth (especially twins) Really I am not trying to diminish her accomplishments. But lets be real.. come on Jennifer..8 gold medals. I could understand if we are talking iron man material..Nope now that I think about it not even then. This is real bling my friend.

Just because I don't want to work anymore given this weather. What is up with the rules at school. I understand that we as society need rules but seriously ..Ok for me this particular rule about close toe shoes really irks me. I love flip flops and have put Kiley in flips since she was home. No problems on the swings. If we go for a walk of course I put her in tennis shoes but you get what I am saying. Of course it helps that Brad's company manufactures flips flops but I digress..Ok and I will admit I am addicted to shoes and have passed that trait on to Kiley. (cough she has 10 pairs of shoes). Fully understanding this we bought her close toes shoes. The pair I fell in love with is pink with a close toe and a strap back. I excitedly put Kiley in those shoes with socks yesterday. I thought ...hey what a good mommy. When I came to pick her up Mrs. Lindsay kindly said that Kiely needed different shoes..WHAT..I understand safety but there has to be a happy medium between safety and cute right. Mrs. Lindsay reminded me about mulch getting into the back of the shoes. Huh..the front yes but back? I am confused? I mean I guess I can.. the point is that I am so vain that I can't seem to fathom putting my daughter in tennis shoes when she is wearing a dress..Oh boy off to Stride rite we go. It is a conspiracy. ,

Hurricane season

I am a sitting here in the office waiting out the storm. As for now it will not hit until later this afternoon. Schools are close so Kiley is with my mom. So here I am trying to tie up loose ends. Kiley's first day went wonderful. I walked into the classroom and she was playing dress up. She had on a Cinderella dress with a crown. It was so cute. She screamed my name really loud and gave me a hug. Oh I feel so much better. OK I am going to hunker down now. See you guys after the storm.

I'll take mine with a side of guilt please.

So today we started the new daycare/preschool. Oh my do I feel like a bad mommy. The school so far has been wonderful. They have bible class, computer class, fun bus and playground areas. Super clean and the teachers seem super nice. I feel so guilty leaving her. Why you ask???? Because she seemed so small to be in a classroom. I turned around as I was leaving and I saw her sitting in her chair and I just started crying. I also have to mention that I took her this morning for her vaccinations. OK sensitive subject here but remember I come from a place of hurt. I have a nephew who is autistic and I will leave it at that. I waited for Kiley's immune system to develop before giving her these immunizations. My God did hurt watching her go through those shots. So here I am taking her to the doctor this morning having her have shots then dropping her off at some new place. Hence some one please pass me the side of guilt.

So I am officially off caffine (cold turkey I might add)... alright not by choice. It stinks folks. The headaches, the fogginess. I could not believe that caffine can affects us/me like it does. Anyways, I did not drink a lot of caffine, I would have my cup of coffee in the morning and a can of diet coke with lunch. Not bad. Well my cardiologist (who happens to be hot) nicely asked me to stop drinking any caffine. Well since he asked nicely and I am a sucker I agreed.. I know ..at least he did not say no to the alcohol..(just kidding) Today is the first day. I hope it gets better. Here are some funny pictures I took of Kiley and I with my phone.

It did not go well..I feel terrible. Our babysitter cried and cried. Not good folks not good at all. I feel like such a heel...

breaking up

Breaking up is hard to do. No Brad and I are fine..sorry if I scared anyone. We are leaving our babysitters. We have enrolled Kiley in a preschool close to our home. I don't want to leave our babysitter as I think the world of her. But at the same time the care has not been the same. She has been going through some issues and well anyways. We have been on the waiting list for this preschool for two years. It really is a good school, they already teach them computer skills, they have dance class, bible class. I am excited and yet sad. I don't want to hurt our babysitter but I also think it is time to move on. I will let you guys know how it goes. We have been kinda preparing Kiley for going to school and she has been pretty adamant about not going to "school". We will see. Of course we have not taken her there yet to meet the other kids. Open house is on the 15th. I know we can always go back to our Babysitters if it does not work out . I just feel really bad about it. I am also extremely nervous. I want to do the right thing for Kiley and for us. I really do wish this was easier. :0)

I love doctors.. I have been having some shortness of breathe for the past two days. When I say shortness of breath I mean I feel like I have been running but I have not been off my fat butt in a few weeks. We can all be in agreement that shortness of breath is not normal. Right...After having these symptoms for two days I called my cardiologist. I figured he would want to know. His nurse called me back and the questions she asked for some reason irritated me. "Have I taken tyneol, advil or tums" really tums for shortness of breathe. Ok I admit I am not a doctor and I really do not claim to be but Tums. Especially because I clearly said that I have not eaten and do not suffer from acid reflux. Ok maybe I am being a little sensitive because of the shortness of breathe. In the end the doctor is suppose to call me. UGH>>>