UPDATE

Ok so it has been a few days....so much has gone on...Well for starters our homestudy is finally complete. Before I jump the gun here..there are some minor changes that need to be made but otherwise it is complete. Now we can send it to INS and hopefully get approval in 6-8 weeeks. It is my understanding that it is at that point that we can get a referral. So once I get the copy of the homestudy with the other pile of documents that need to go to the secretary of state for approval. Now the issue comes to play is whether we should wait to accept a referral until more of our dosseir is complete. This is the part where the stupid finger prints become an issue. I am reviewing our paperwork and realize that we still need to get witness affidavits done and the FBI check at which point we can send our papers to be state certified. I am learning that these documents need to be state certified and then sent to the GuatemalaConsulate before they can be sent down to Guatemala. Whoosh what a handfull.

Poor Brad, I sent him to get our medical letters redone (i.e., notary date was not the same as the date of the letter) see what I mean about the details...) this morning and low and behold the office was not open. I can assure you that he was not laughing when he called me and asked me to repeat our Mantra...It's a journey not a race....over and over again.

Otherwise things have been good. Looking for a new car as my lease is up. What is it with these slimy car dealers. I just want to go home and shower after I deal with them. Welll that is if they actually listen to you not your husband. I was so mad we went to the Lexus delearship and the guy completely blows me off. Only talking to Brad. Brad is there telling him well my wife , Dennise who is here likes blah blah blah. I walked off and told Brad that I did not want to buy a car from there. Problem is that is the only Lexus delearship in town. What are you going to do???

Questions

So as I was sitting here at my desk I realize that I have done nothing today to move the process forward. This really bothers me. I want to do everything possible to help move the process forward. I guess I feel like I have been in the same state of the process (paper process) for so long. More importantly I want to be able to tell our baby that I/we wanted him/her so badly that we moved at lightening speed. As I was beginning to feel down, I realized that my case manager said that we needed to send our state certified BC to the Guatemala consulate of that state. This gave me hope as it gave me something to do. So I emailed my case manager and asked whether I can send the BC now or whether I needed to wait. I have not heard a response. Hmm. So I wonder if this normal?? I wonder where my trust is? I remember what my sister told me when we first started this journey, she said that she believed that before a baby is born they look down at us from heaven and watch us for a while and decide who they want as parents. Because of this she said we all have the baby that is meant for each and everyone of us. I like that thought. I guess I can't rush it and trust that it will happen at the perfect time. Nevertheless BABY if you are there, HI!!!

Here we go!

A little background, we are in the process of adopting of Guatemala. We are at what I like to call "paper pregnancy" stage. I/we are almost done with our dossier :0) Hopefully after that is complete we will get a referral. The dossier process appears to be never ending. I have read that I should treasure this time for it is the only portion of the adoption process that I have actual control over. I think that is a bunch of bologna. How is it that I have control over this when I have to follow all of these requirements of other people that I don't know and who ultimatley will decide if we can parent and when. Can we say bitter party of one. I am so tired of the paperwork, the double checking, the triple checking.....I don't want to have to carry a binder with what seems like a hundred of documents with a check list as big as the Godfather's rap sheet...I rather be carrying a picture of our baby. Gosh I sound like a martyr.
Anyways, so today we go to get our local background check done. This is the last documents that our social worker needed for the homestudy. Can I get an AMEN!! So I was really excited this morning. However, I , as always, had big expectations. I figured that we could get our fingerprints done for the FBI check at the same time. On a side note, I just found out about the FBI check requirement yesterday from my case manager. I was told get it done at the same time as the local background check. Easy enough. Wrong...as we are waiting to get served at the police department I look over and there is a sign which states, and I quote "fingerprinting will only be done on Tuesdays from 8:00am to 12:00pm" note, today is Wednsday. I look over to my husband who know has learned to read my body language and knows I am going to blow...he says...I will be at .....(it doesn't matter at this point) on Tuesday......I look at him and say you know it will take three weeks to get our background check back from the FBI ....he just nods and says...Remember it is a journey Honey not a race.... UGHH

So the journey begins

I started this blog as a journel for our adoption from Guatemala. I wanted a place to vent and a place to express my love for my/our baby.